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September 8, 2002
September 8 2002,
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to my sweet boy!
Today at 10:30 pm my little boy will officially be 2 years old. He has been such a joy in my life and truly a gift from God. He has brought so much into our lives and I am forever grateful to the Lord for blessing me with such a great little boy. Alec wakes up every morning with a cute little grin on his face and his beach blonde almost white Hair wild and spiky from the nights sleep. I am greeted with a “Hello MOMMY!” and a hug! Even though I have never been much of a morning person Alec always makes me smile in the wee hours of the morning.
Goodbye to nursing, baby smell, and dependence on mommy~
I know I have said this many times before but I can not believe how fast Alec has grown up. I can remember the day I brought him home from the hospital. He seemed so big at the time because he was 9 pounds 4 oz. However now looking back on that day, that seems so tiny to me. I was so proud of my baby boy and excited that I was successfully nursing him. I loved the times when he would nurse for an hour straight and laughed when people thought I was crazy for loving me. It was Gods way of making me have that extra time with him. Nursing made me stop and enjoy babyhood. I would just look at Alecs toes and fingers as he was nursing. I would hum lullaby’s to him and every once in a while he would stop and give me a smile and then go back to nursing. Those are memories that will forever be a part of me and treasured. Some moms do not like to nurse because it makes them stop what they are doing, I loved it. I hated giving Alec a bottle at all and I truly miss it very much. Since Alec stopped nursing at 18 months he is always on the move and only once in a while do I get those little cuddles and special moments.
Another thing that I also miss is that sweet smell of a newborns head. Yes, it is a weird thing, but as I was nursing I used to love to kiss the top of Alecs head and close my eyes. This just had a way of calming me down and forgetting about all the bad in the world for those few precious moments. When I get the chance to cuddle Alec now, I still kiss the top of his head but now I smell that wonderful smell of “boy”. This is not a bad smell however, it is different and not the same.
When your little one tells you “No Mommy, I do Self!”(this is the way Alec says it) For the first time you are so excited, yet it breaks your heart at the same time. I am happy he is gaining independence and sad that he does not need mommy for everything anymore. I love to do things for my children and when my baby does not need me as much anymore it hurts a little. This is just another little sign of his growing up and moving on. Before I know it he will be doing everything for himself and I will just be Mom, not mommy. This is hard to think about.
Hello to Independence
In the last couple of weeks I have taken time to sit back and just watch Alec play. It amazes me at how much he has learned in just two short years. He started out as a sweet little being that could do nothing but suck, cry and poop. Now he is a “kid” and can do so many things and everyday adds another accomplishment to the list. He can put together a train track with all his Thomas stuff better and faster then I can. He can build a tower of blocks with a color sequence he follows. It blows my mind how much he learns with just observing other people. He adds a new word to his vocabulary every day and like to do things for himself more then he wants help. He has even started to try and put his own diaper on. We have taken the first steps to potty training at his request and I am in no hurry to have him potty trained. He can take as long as he likes, however I have a feeling he will be trained before he is 2 and a half! When it is time to get shoes on Alec likes to do it himself and manages to do a really good job with it.
Closing thoughts from Mommy
As I move away from being a mommy of a baby I look forward to the wonderful things that lay ahead of us. There will be the first big boy bike, the first day of preschool, oh so many more first that I am sure I will treasure always. Seeing as Joe and I keep going back and forth on having another baby I have made myself think of how I feel if Alec were to be my “baby” forever. You know what, I am okay with it. Sure I would love another child but I would not be disappointed if Alec were my last. He is such a joy and I have taken all the moments with him as if he was the last of my children. I make sure to stop and enjoy the things he is doing and not rush through life.
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