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Kim's Diary Entries Diary Navigation: Choose A Diary Entry -------------------- Latest Entry: 9/20/00 -------------------- 9/13/00 9/6/00 8/17/00 8/16/00 8/8/00 8/2/00 7/18/00 7/13/00 6/28/00 6/20/00 6/6/00 5/23/00 5/17/00 5/10/00 5/3/00 4/25/00 4/19/00 4/10/00 3/28/00 3/22/00 3/15/00 3/8/00 3/1/00 2/23/00 2/16/00 2/10/00 2/2/00 1/24/00 1/13/00 1/5/00 12/29/99 12/15/99 12/7/99 12/1/99 -------------------- Kim's Introduction

December 7, 1999

Hi everyone. I hope your holiday preparations are going well. So far I've purchased all my gifts over the Internet. I'm trying to get through the holiday season without stepping in the mall. It would just be too hard to shop in crowds with Max.

Speaking of the little scamp, he's a walker now! On December 1st, he looked at me from across the living room and just headed toward me with his arms stretched out. He walked all the way across the room without falling and without stopping. We were both so excited!!!!! Ever since then, he's been walking everywhere. I am so proud of his achievement, but at the same time, it's just another gentle reminder that my "baby" is growing up ... and needing me less.

I'm feeling a bit sad as I write this because I dropped Max off at his babysitter's this morning for a full day. Usually Ross has Max at home with him until 1:30 p.m., then takes him to Shelly's house and then I pick him up at 2:30 pm. We've decided to take him to Shelly's for full days on Tuesdays and Thursdays. For some reason I feel sad now when I know he is there all day instead of with Ross or me. Don't get me wrong, he LOVES Shelly and she loves him. In fact, that may be attributing to my sad feelings. Max likes Shelly so much that sometimes when I go pick him up, he doesn't want me, he wants Shelly to continue holding him. This just started about two weeks ago. He used to come crawling like crazy towards me when I would walk in the door. Now he doesn't even look at me some times and if he does, he doesn't always want me to take him. Why? It makes me feel terrible and I'm wondering if he loves her more than me.

I know I should be happy that they have a great relationship and that he is happy. I know that in my head, but in my heart I feel like I'm losing part of him or he is choosing her over me. This in combination with the walking and not needing or wanting to hold my finger anymore for support has given me the blues.

Until next week... Kim

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