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February 4, 2001

This week has just been the week from hell. On Wednesday I was so ready to just drop out of school, and I was so frustrated. Fortunately, things have improved a lot since then. Monday was ok, I found out I did more work than I needed to on one of my labs, but that was ok (other than the fact that I wasted a lot of time). Then came Tuesday. I broke $70 worth of glassware in the lab in the first 15 minutes. I just wanted to leave all my stuff there and go home.
Then Wednesday. Should I even mention all this? Alexandria woke up with a fever. She was just acting so miserable that I didn’t have the heart to make her go to daycare, so I decided to call Al and tell him to come home from work. But, I first wanted to get some Tylenol for her. I searched and searched the house for it, and I couldn’t find it. So, I bundle her up, and climb into the freezing cold car, and go to Walgreen’s. Every time I drive anywhere near this area, I do something to the car I’m in. Anyway, I parked next to a concrete block. I rushed in the store, and I bought a bunch of cold remedies for Alexandria. I rushed her and the goodies back into the car, and just wasn’t thinking. I put the car into reverse, and turned hard (very hard) to the right, and right into the concrete block. Not only did I feel stupid, but I furious with myself. I was just in such a hurry, and so stressed out, that I just wasn’t paying attention. What a weenie. There wasn’t much damage to the car, there was more to my ego.
So, Al comes home, I rush off to class. It goes okay, but I’m running around trying to get stuff done. I finally get home at around 5:00. The house is dark, the radio is blaring, and no one is to be found, except I hear Alexandria whining/crying from somewhere. I ask what the h*%* is going on, and Al flips me the bird. I knew right away what he did: he went and got drunk. He was massively drunk, too. I found the bottle of Chivas Regal, ¾ gone. I was furious, because that night I needed to do a massive lab write- up, and some homework in there, and I had so much else to do. I was just irate. I worked on the stuff for 5 hours straight while Alexandria whined, squirmed, and just felt miserable. She was snoozing on her drunken father. I was angry every time I looked over at him. Then, he handed her off to me at 2:00 a.m. and went to bed. I slept with her in the recliner, and we slept till about 7:45. When I woke up, I felt like someone had been beating on the inside if *my* skull, from lack of sleep. Thursday was okay. Except, I was the first to start the lab, last to leave, and the stupid electrode I was using was messed up. I don't care if "it worked fine yesterday", it didn't work for me. It didn't work for the prof, either. I am sick of doing all my instrumentation labs twice, and by myself. Keep in mind, everyone else in the class has one other person to help them out. I am partnerless because there are an odd number of people in the class, and I was the last to enroll, so everyone else had partners by the time I appeared on the scene. I just can’t help but to think, of all the people in my class, I’m the one that needs a partner the most: I have a baby I want to be home with; I have a family! No one else in the class has that; they’re carefree college students. It just gets on my last frayed nerve. As they say: sucks to be me. LOL Anyway, I got home on Thursday to find two dozen roses. It still didn’t make up for how truly horrible Wednesday was, though.
I really, really hope this week is better. I have a ton of work to do still, and I hope I can get most of it done by tonight. Ugh. Wish me luck!
Candace and Alexandria